A QUESTION UNANSWERED

It was a moonlit night.I was sitting beside the window and was thinking about him-the days that we have spent together..The relationship which we shared...How could he...How could he forget it?I questioned myself several times.

Was it Love?Did he ever love me? Dint he feel the same thing as I felt?These questions were running over my mind.Though I was alone in my room but these questions seemed to surround me.I felt as someone is pricking me.
At this point i had forgottten who I was..I had lost my identity.I was never like that.I was a firm and determined girl and my parents' pet.But what has happened to me today.......?
I questioned myself several times?How could someone bring such a huge change in me?I felt like a puppet in his hands..

My friends,colleagues and everyone had observed these changes in me and have questioned me several times.."You were not like this"..what happened?and i dint have an answer

Today at this point of time i feel alone..all alone.No one is there with me.Anyways what can we expect from others when your dear one doesnt understand you.
Was I wrong in asking him to devot some time for me....I didnt feel so.He said he loved me lot.But can a girl lead all her life being a lover?Is this accepted in our society?Though we all say we are "GENX" but society comes to picture all the time.Would society accept me keeping this relation...?

I was deeply sunk in the thoughts when my phone rang.I brought myself back from the dream world to the real world,got up to receive the call.

It was my dad and he said he had a good news for me.Though at that point I was not in a mood to be happy but i pretended to be as happy and excited as possible.He told that they had selected a match for me..he was a software enginner and he stays in Hydrabad.

At that i was shocked.I didnt have words to say him.He sounded very happy as if he was in seventh heaven and it would be too unfair on my part to say him anything now.

I was mum and when he finally realised my silence he asked me what was the matter?Do I have someone in my life?Was i not happy with this proposal?The more he questioned the more I could feel his weak voice.It seened to me as if a toy has been snatched from a baby and who is too small to cry to its heart's content. I tried to act mature and i gatherd my full strength, laughed and said it was nothing like that.I am very very happy.At this he was very happy.At one point i
felt as if I was talking to the happiest person in this earth.He told me that the guys's family would come to meet me next week.

I didnt know what was happening all this while.I felt a storm was blowing and has destroyed everything. I was frozen like a rock.Then i realised i was becoming selfish.For my own happiness which has no destiny, i was gambling with my family's emotion and happiness.And i am not selfish.How could I forget the pains my parents took in bring me to this position.How could I forget their selfless sacrifices?

I dont know what will happen to me next week.May be that guy will choose me as his bride and I will get married to him.

But for the last time I would like to ask him one question"DID YOU EVER LOVE ME?"